Thursday, January 10, 2013
One of the Truest Test
I have had several of ........ what the heck is going on with life these last few weeks. from hospital stays, to heartbreak, to wrecking my car and now the overwhelming scare of driving down the hill to work or up the hill home. We are super busy at work so it isn't the best time to miss to much of it. I have driven my hubs C R A Z Y with my what if's?? my over thinking?? my anxiety, and my tears!!! BUT even with my less than nice voice and my excuses... he has been there a 100%. He has drove me to work which is 35 minutes one way and then came back down and picked me up, some days when I have appts he has to make that hour round trip drive 3x's in a day. I have attempted getting back on the road, I drove the rental car a few days but then we had a little bit of snow come thru, nothing major at all few silly inches......it is the freeze that has me freaked out and the rental car isn't a familiar car for me so I am not showing any confidence to try and drive it in freezing conditions. Today and tomorrow the hubs is on driving duties again and even though he isn't happy about it that I get all worked up and think it is making him mad, he really isn't, he is just frustrated that I tell him he's mad when he's not!! I am just afraid it is putting him out and I feel bad for making him do it.... he would do anything in the world for me I know this with all my heart. It is the small things when shown that mean the most and his understanding with me even if it did make him angry I know he still would do them which to me is the truest test of love for sure.